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Welcome Eddie to Christ First Forum, 'the best' Christ-centered Christian forum on the internet!
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Thank you all for the nice welcome. You asked us to introduce to ourselves so I will. I am Eddie McMillion. I am 37 years old and live in Springfield, Louisiana. I am currently going thru a divorce that I absolutlitly dont want. I love my wife with all of my being. She left me because she says she doesnt love me anymore after 18 years of us being a couple. I feel that she left because she couldnt handle my mental illnesses. I suffer from paranoid schizorpherenia and severe depression. We have a 12 year old son who is suppose to be scared of me. I only see him maybe once or twice a month on a Saturday. I am not allowed to take him anywhere or be by myself with him. I live in a double wide mobile home by myself. Well that is not really ture I live with my dog and three cats and two Koi goldfish. They are the only ones that dont give me grief. LOL!! I live in the woods so to say. I am disabiled as a result of these mental illnesses. I dont have a car of my own. My wife took it when she left. I borrow my grandparents car because they drive their van and the car just sits in the garage. I must say that I am not a big fan of the catholic religon. I am sorry if that doesnt sit right but out of my experience with them I am not happy at all. When a priest says it is ok to date anyone you like while being separated from your spouse and telling my son he is going to pergeator when he dies doesnt hold water with me. I am not by any means what so ever finished reading my bible. I do know this it doesnt say anything like what they are telling my son and my wife. I only came to the Lord ten months ago. I came because my life was totally taken from me. I always ran and blamed God for all the wrong things in our lives. I cursed him and wanted nothing to do with him what so ever. I hated him and everything he stood for. I was wrong. I wanted a miracle or a prayer answered from him. I wanted and still want him to save my marriage and save my little family from being destroyed. It was selfish I know. It became something more to me than just wanting my prayer answered. I started to have a realationship with him. I was happy with where I was being lead by him. I am still being lead. I dont know what will happen in my marriage. I dont think really that he is going to save it. My wife has a boyfriend now and my son wants nothing to do with me. I only have my realationship with God. That seems to be the only real thing I have anymore. I am good friends with Jeanni and Carmela. I know them from Christ in Prophecy facebook page. I have a new family over there. I am hoping that I might be able to find one here also. Well that is my drama and life as I live it everyday. I am a really honest and open person. My life is an open book. I do that for the simple reason of if I can help someone from going thru the pain and suffering that is my life then my job has been done. I may not ever be able to save my marriage but if I can save someone's family from being destroied because of mental illness than I feel I owe to society to speak up and save a family from being anihilated. Thanks again for the welcome. I look forward to reading everyones posts and learning as much as I can. I want to be able to help people with my knowledge. I owe to society to do that.

Hi Eddie, Thanks for sharing your story and opening up your heart to us. My life too is an open book. I will take this post of yours and contemplate on what I believe the Lord would have me share with you.

We are a small group and a very loving group. You can find a friend here!

Eddie I suffer from major depression, but thank God it is in check now, but I spent several years nearly as a zombie. I am on meds, which I can not do without, because if I did, I would hit bottom again very quickly.

I'm so glad you have chosen to join us here at CFF. This is a very special place and I have no doubts that you will fit in perfectly. As you said in your introduction, you are putting Christ First and that is what it is all about. I pray that He guides you through these issues, and gives you peace of mind that however He decides, it is what is best for all.

I pray that He will reach down and put a very heavy burden on your son, that he will realize that you are his dad and none of the issues matter.

If there is anything that I can help you with, please do not hesitate to let me know.

God bless brother and again welcome home,

Wayne

Eddie, First, let me say, you got a miracle, maybe not exactly what you asked for, but the greatest miracle of all is your salvation. It is beyond a doubt the greatest miracle of all. How God can make us brand new creations and how He can forgive our sins and give us eternal life and then one day give us a incorruptible body that will live forever with Him.

You see my brother, this is just the beginning. He is going to do things in your life that you thought was never possible. Keep reading the word. Get into a bible believing church if possible. You now have the Heavenly Father who is concerned about every aspect of your life and wants the best for you. He is in the business of restoration and reconciliation. Never give up on your hopes and dreams. If you diligently seek him and lean not on your understanding and acknowledge Him in all that you do, then He will give you the desires of your heart.

I want you to know that I will help in anyway I can to help you in this growth process and journey that lies a head for you in the Lord.

Hello again Eddie (we chatted earlier)!
It's nice to have you here (:
We are more than a Christian forum here, we're a family, welcome to our little Christ centered family!
Eddie, we all have our cross to carry... I'm no exception. My life has not been easy for one named Joye.
I wrote some time ago within the Topic 'Testimonies' here: testimonies-f54.html
God has brought me through, and He will bring you through as well.
Trust and Faith, keep close to Him in prayer.
We're here for you, and we care!
You'll find that this site will bless you - feel free to make yourself at home here in CFF (:

I invited Eddie to this 'family of God' because I believe we all could help him grow in the Lord...

Thanks sooo much for sharing your life with him,and especially Wayne that you suffer from depression, too.

Posting the importance of having to stay on meds,and knowing that God is working through these meds...

My own son suffers with schizophrenia,and I personally know that MANY people will JUDGE...

They don't truly understand mental illness,and they ALWAYS think it's a SPIRITUAL PROBLEM...

Eddie and I have come from a forum that has been debated over and over that mental illness is demonic possession which I will defend with my last breathe that this belief is sooo false....

I have seen my own son take his one med,and the med controls his chemical imbalance within his brain...

No med can scare away demons so it's pure ignorance by many professing Christians...

Now I do believe God can HEAL ANYONE, if it's in His Will, but it's through PRAYER...through Jesus Christ the Son...

I know Eddie will be LOVED on this forum as I once was...that's why I invited him to join us...

God Bless...

Thank you for the warm welcome!! I am very happy to be accepted so warmly. Yes Jeani is right I am always eager to learn more about God's word. I must admit I dont read my bible like I should and want to. With my disease I become distracted easily. I have sooo many other religious books I bought and have recieved that I would like to read but I cant keep my mind on the book. It goes to my problems and then I just sink into them instead of the task at hand. I am getting there slowly but surely. I am going to be reading old posts and seeing if I want to respond to them or if I have something on my own then I will post it for everyone to think about. Like I said in my introduction I am very open and honest. I dont have any secerts on anything. I dont hold my life back from anyone. I always feel that maybe somewhere out there in cyberspace in the "shadows" there might be someone reading what I am posting and maybe just maybe they can relate to me and my situation. Those are the people I hope to reach. The ones who are afraid to speak up. I may save someones life or marriage or change a persons mind about Jesus. I didnt have anyone like that for me. I had to do it on my own for a selfish reason. I wanted a prayer answered. So if anyone has an questions I will not shy away from it. I dont like the same things or do the same things that what I would call a "Christian" does. I like different music and Tv and movies than more than likely you do. Not into nasty stuff though!! LOL!! Want to throw that out real quick like!! I love God but I am comfortable with what I do that I dont think it will conflict upon my beliefs. Thank you all again!!!